Mother will sacrifice anything for ailing daughter
For 20 years, Jeanne Rettos Logan has performed as a vocalist in Park City. She sang in many fundraisers, but never like this.
Never for her own fundraiser, for her own child.
In fact she still may never. If emotions run too high she may not step up to the mic., but she’ll try.
"It’s going to be really hard. At first I thought maybe I won’t do it, I don’t have to. If it feels right then I will. It will be very emotional," Logan said.
Her seven-month old daughter, Kristina Marie, was born with a combination of heart defects. Surgeries have been performed and future operations are planned.
The Egyptian Theatre will host "Have a Heart Benefit" Sept. 8 at 7 p.m. to raise money for the family and the Children’s Heart Foundation. The event will include live and silent auctions, music with the Motherlode Canyon Band, Small House Strings and other special guests. Logan is planning on singing with both bands at the event. Tickets are available at the Egyptian Theatre box office for $50. There are also special cabaret tables available for $100. There will also be guest speakers from Primary Children’s Hospital and The Children’s Heart Foundation. Stacy Dalmaleski will be the master of ceremonies for the evening and will help host Mayor Dana Williams with the live auction.
The Logan’s have opened an account at Wells Fargo Bank for people to donate money. Any cash donated to the trust is tax deductible. All the proceeds at the fundraiser will also go into the account. Even ticket prices are tax deductible, Logan said. Checks should be made out to Logan Painting Company with notation in the memo: Kristina’s donation fund.
"Through the last 20 years in Park City, I have been a vocalist and been performing at such events. It is very different being on the other end receiving the support from this community. Now being on the flip side, I have a different sense of compassion."
The future is unknown for Kristina. One day the infant may appear to be fine and the next, she’ll need to be rushed to the hospital.
"We found out that things can flip really fast," Logan said. "We realized how easily things can go the other way and how quickly she can go into congestive heart failure. Even the doctors, it’s a guessing game for them. It’s a balancing act. It’s maintenance with her medicine and keeping the right amount of food in her. It’s the unknown.
"I cry every day, because we don’t know. We don’t know what lies ahead of us," Logan said.
What they do know however, is there will be more doctors bills. They have insurance but those funds are running out.
"We have a cap on our insurance; we’re on our second open-heart surgery in a year," Logan said.
After a certain dollar amount, her insurance will stop giving money to the family. If anyone else is in need of health care they may not be covered, those funds may be used up by Kristina’s operations, Logan said.
If they’re lucky, Kristina will need between two and 4 a procedures until she’s a teenager.
"Then it’s a waiting game to see if she needs a transplant," Logan said.
The Logans are juggling their budget in anticipation of what this may do to them financially. They are currently renting because they cannot afford a house.
"Our cap on insurance in the next five years will be gone, and that’s if things go well. Our insurance has gone up quite a bit. (Kristina) is uninsurable; she will never have life insurance.
"We are trying not to lose everything that we have. We are in waiting mode because we don’t’ know if we can stay here in Park City. If something happens to another family member, we need some cushion. We’re doing okay though; there is food on the table," Logan said.
The last year has been a roller coaster for the Logans. There have been times when Kristina has almost died in her mother’s arms.
"We almost lost her twice," Logan said. "I thought, ‘she’s gone,’ as she started slipping away."
The almost constant battle for Kristina’s life makes the Logans appreciate the present.
"I think we just know, when you are dealing with something this heavy, it makes you appreciate today. It makes you appreciate right now, living today in the moment. We have Kristina right now."
Logan understands the value of continuing to live her own lives while they continue to help their ailing daughter.
"We have to be here for our son, he needs us," Logan said. "We have our own life; we have to make sure we have our own sanity time. This winter we didn’t. It’s like a part of you just died, we have to move forward. When you have children you would die for them.
"Bottom line: it’s just the way it is. It’s the realty of it. Can they fix it, yeah we can fix it right now, for a couple years. We’re going to make the best of it."
Hope and love keep the Logan family holding on.
"We are hoping with research that something will happen, maybe they can make something in the next 20 years to help her. You can’t give up hope. The doctors can’t say one way or the other because they’ve seen too many miracles."
The Egyptian Theatre will host "Have a Heart Benefit" Sept. 8 at 7 p.m. to raise money for Kristina Logan and research for the Children’s Heart Foundation. The event will include live and silent auctions, music with the Motherlode Canyon Band, Small House Strings and other special guests. Logan is planning on singing with both bands at the event. Tickets are available at the Egyptian Theatre box office for $50. There are also special cabaret tables available for $100. There will be guest speakers from Primary Children’s Hospital and the Children’s Heart Foundation.
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